kata kata kata kata
bibirku ingin mengucap ribuan kata
dia dia dia dia
otakku selalu berucap tentang dia.
bibir berucap karena otak.
otak bekerja. bibir berkata. begitulah tubuh bekerja.
otakku berisi dia. bibirku mengucap kata.
kata tentang dia??
mungkin saja.
dia.
siapa??
pertanyaan yang aku pun tak tau jawabnya.
bisa aku membayangkannya.
tapi menceritakannya ku tak bisa.
mengapa??
tak bisa.
tapi mengapa??
siapa sangka??
biarlah di otakku saja dia ada.
dan dalam kaata ku saja dia bermakna.
Jumat, 16 Juli 2010
Selasa, 13 Juli 2010
wait..waiting..waited..
My trending topic those recent days is : WAITING.
Actually I don't like waiting. At all.
Wait makes my brain burns. My mood going down.
Nunggu..nunggu..nunggu..
Is it a kind of activity?? I don't think so.
Just sitting. Doing nothing. Looking around.
Called waiting.
Doesn't create something. But boring.
Yes I don't like it at all.
But I realize that nothing's perfect in life.
All I want not always here. And all I don't like sometimes comes around me.
Yes. Its life.
Waiting, as something I don't like, comes to me continually those recent days.
And it become a must for me.
All I need always makes me waiting.
I really want to go ahead.
But I can't escape. I need this. So I must be waiting. Patiently.
How come it become a trending topic for me those recent days??
I never have problem in waiting before.
I never have enough patience in waiting.
But now..
I have it enough.
To wait something I really need.
Maybe its a maturity process.
I have to learn to be patient enough to be mature.
Is it??
Yes.
Nothing perfect in life.
And patience is the key.
Receive it wholeheartedly will make life seems better.
Its emotional management.
Just be patient.
Even its hard. :)
Actually I don't like waiting. At all.
Wait makes my brain burns. My mood going down.
Nunggu..nunggu..nunggu..
Is it a kind of activity?? I don't think so.
Just sitting. Doing nothing. Looking around.
Called waiting.
Doesn't create something. But boring.
Yes I don't like it at all.
But I realize that nothing's perfect in life.
All I want not always here. And all I don't like sometimes comes around me.
Yes. Its life.
Waiting, as something I don't like, comes to me continually those recent days.
And it become a must for me.
All I need always makes me waiting.
I really want to go ahead.
But I can't escape. I need this. So I must be waiting. Patiently.
How come it become a trending topic for me those recent days??
I never have problem in waiting before.
I never have enough patience in waiting.
But now..
I have it enough.
To wait something I really need.
Maybe its a maturity process.
I have to learn to be patient enough to be mature.
Is it??
Yes.
Nothing perfect in life.
And patience is the key.
Receive it wholeheartedly will make life seems better.
Its emotional management.
Just be patient.
Even its hard. :)
Minggu, 11 Juli 2010
my greatest angel, mom. sorry...
here i'm alone in d balcony in diz cold nite..
Seeing at that clean dark sky..
N i miss u.
Suddenly..
Yes..suddenly.
What a silly child i am.
Missing u suddenly out here while u think of me all d time out there.
Myb fo u i always b ur cute nice little girl.
Ur beloved girl.
But actually i am not. At all.
Everything has change.
I'm change.
Yes i'm here far away from u.
From ur hug.
N with my silliness i'm being this way.
I can't do what i could did when i'm with u.
I knw u'll b so dissappointed if u knw how ur little girl is now.
I'm being like this,mom.
Guilty is around my mind.
But i can do nothing.
Yes i'm half a man now.
U pray fo me all nite long.
U r missing me day by day.
U think of me in every step u take.
U wish that i could b a better n great woman out here.
But i've done anything yet.
Yes i'm wasting my time.
Yes i'm destroying my life.
N yes i'm rarely think of u.
I'm messy.
I can't control my self.
I'm wasting my life.
My mind is full of shit.
I can't handle it.everything's soo confused.
I'm stumbling in the dark.
Now..
I really miss u so,mom.
I need ur hug.
Ur warm hug.
I need u to calm me down.
To guide me straight.
I see ur wise face in that dark sky.
I would say sorry for all my silly mistake fo u.
I'm soo sorry.
All i can do is pray n pray a sincere prayer fo u.
I'm begging God always save u as u save me until now.
I love u wholeheartedly.
Mom.
Seeing at that clean dark sky..
N i miss u.
Suddenly..
Yes..suddenly.
What a silly child i am.
Missing u suddenly out here while u think of me all d time out there.
Myb fo u i always b ur cute nice little girl.
Ur beloved girl.
But actually i am not. At all.
Everything has change.
I'm change.
Yes i'm here far away from u.
From ur hug.
N with my silliness i'm being this way.
I can't do what i could did when i'm with u.
I knw u'll b so dissappointed if u knw how ur little girl is now.
I'm being like this,mom.
Guilty is around my mind.
But i can do nothing.
Yes i'm half a man now.
U pray fo me all nite long.
U r missing me day by day.
U think of me in every step u take.
U wish that i could b a better n great woman out here.
But i've done anything yet.
Yes i'm wasting my time.
Yes i'm destroying my life.
N yes i'm rarely think of u.
I'm messy.
I can't control my self.
I'm wasting my life.
My mind is full of shit.
I can't handle it.everything's soo confused.
I'm stumbling in the dark.
Now..
I really miss u so,mom.
I need ur hug.
Ur warm hug.
I need u to calm me down.
To guide me straight.
I see ur wise face in that dark sky.
I would say sorry for all my silly mistake fo u.
I'm soo sorry.
All i can do is pray n pray a sincere prayer fo u.
I'm begging God always save u as u save me until now.
I love u wholeheartedly.
Mom.
hey, my dearest soulmate. ;)
Hey,dear..
I knw u real out there.maybe around me,in this tiny world.
We just haven't find each other yet.
But soon,when it comes,it must b d most beautiful n unique moment.
My soulmate,u must b d winner of my heart.much better than others.
Thx for being a hard worker n strong fighter for me.
Yes,u might not be as handsome as rob pattinson or else darius sinathrya.
But for me,u could b much better than them.
Bcz u r charming n smart.
U hv ur own engaging style with ur great brain n behave.
Yes i like sweet roses.n myb i'm melting bcz of sweet words.
But tht's all nothing without provement.
All i need is fact,no bullshit.
N i knw u r a real gentleman with a provement beside ur sweet words.
Yes,i knw u love me.
U could enter my world nicely.
Ur kindness could attract not only me,but also my family n my besties.
N over all,u must be my greatest leader.
Could drive me better n threat me well with all ur care.
Save me for ur best n last.
Just keep fighting n proove ur effort.
Soon i'll realize that u r my real soulmate.
Hehe.
Aiu lg ksambet cupid
I knw u real out there.maybe around me,in this tiny world.
We just haven't find each other yet.
But soon,when it comes,it must b d most beautiful n unique moment.
My soulmate,u must b d winner of my heart.much better than others.
Thx for being a hard worker n strong fighter for me.
Yes,u might not be as handsome as rob pattinson or else darius sinathrya.
But for me,u could b much better than them.
Bcz u r charming n smart.
U hv ur own engaging style with ur great brain n behave.
Yes i like sweet roses.n myb i'm melting bcz of sweet words.
But tht's all nothing without provement.
All i need is fact,no bullshit.
N i knw u r a real gentleman with a provement beside ur sweet words.
Yes,i knw u love me.
U could enter my world nicely.
Ur kindness could attract not only me,but also my family n my besties.
N over all,u must be my greatest leader.
Could drive me better n threat me well with all ur care.
Save me for ur best n last.
Just keep fighting n proove ur effort.
Soon i'll realize that u r my real soulmate.
Hehe.
Aiu lg ksambet cupid
Call it L.O.V.E
cinta itu seperti pasir..smakin digenggam,makin sdikit yg kita dpt.
Cinta itu ky angin..kita hny bs merasakan hmbusannya,namun sll gagal untuk menggenggamnya.
Cinta itu ky air..mengalir indah bgitu saja.
Cinta itu..pasir,angin,air.
Abstrak.
Cinta..
Aku pernah merasakan nya.
Aku pernah meyakini nya.
Aku pernah memiliki nya.
Aku pernah membiarkannya mengalir
bgitu saja.
Apa yang ku dapat??
Abstrak.
Absurd.
Cinta itu dirasa..bukan diraba..
Ya..cinta itu abstrak.
Complicated.
Aku pernah meyakininya..
Namun apa??
Ingin aku membiarkannya mengalir..
Namun kadang cinta menuntut.
Apa ini sbenarnya??
Cinta adalah sbuah rasa..
Indah namun menyakitkan..
Nyaman namun membingungkan..
Cinta itu tulus..
Ya..aku hanya merasakan dan menemukan nya pada cinta ibu pada ku.
Persetan dg yg lain nya.
Kadang aku lelah memberi dan mencari cinta.
Namun raga ini kerap menuntut hadirnya.
Ah..cinta..cinta..cinta..
Ingin ku haturkan cinta ini hanya untuk ibunda dan Sang Kuasa.
Namun apa..
Cinta kembali berkata.
Katakan ini cinta..
Memberikan semuanya tanpa syarat.
Tidak..itu kebodohan.
Katakan ini cinta..
Menggenggamnya erat hingga sesak napas.
Tidak..itu penyiksaan.
Katakan ini cinta..
Cinta..
Cinta..
Cinta..
Kenapa sllu cinta..
Indah namun juga menyesakkan..
Biarkan saja cinta menghampiri.
Mengalir indah begitu saja.
Tanpa berusaha menggenggamnya.
Tanpa ada tuntutan.
Haruskah??
Sanggupkah??
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Cinta itu ky angin..kita hny bs merasakan hmbusannya,namun sll gagal untuk menggenggamnya.
Cinta itu ky air..mengalir indah bgitu saja.
Cinta itu..pasir,angin,air.
Abstrak.
Cinta..
Aku pernah merasakan nya.
Aku pernah meyakini nya.
Aku pernah memiliki nya.
Aku pernah membiarkannya mengalir
bgitu saja.
Apa yang ku dapat??
Abstrak.
Absurd.
Cinta itu dirasa..bukan diraba..
Ya..cinta itu abstrak.
Complicated.
Aku pernah meyakininya..
Namun apa??
Ingin aku membiarkannya mengalir..
Namun kadang cinta menuntut.
Apa ini sbenarnya??
Cinta adalah sbuah rasa..
Indah namun menyakitkan..
Nyaman namun membingungkan..
Cinta itu tulus..
Ya..aku hanya merasakan dan menemukan nya pada cinta ibu pada ku.
Persetan dg yg lain nya.
Kadang aku lelah memberi dan mencari cinta.
Namun raga ini kerap menuntut hadirnya.
Ah..cinta..cinta..cinta..
Ingin ku haturkan cinta ini hanya untuk ibunda dan Sang Kuasa.
Namun apa..
Cinta kembali berkata.
Katakan ini cinta..
Memberikan semuanya tanpa syarat.
Tidak..itu kebodohan.
Katakan ini cinta..
Menggenggamnya erat hingga sesak napas.
Tidak..itu penyiksaan.
Katakan ini cinta..
Cinta..
Cinta..
Cinta..
Kenapa sllu cinta..
Indah namun juga menyesakkan..
Biarkan saja cinta menghampiri.
Mengalir indah begitu saja.
Tanpa berusaha menggenggamnya.
Tanpa ada tuntutan.
Haruskah??
Sanggupkah??
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